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Feb. 9th, 2011 | 01:38 pm

My fears feel all too real. Someone needs to hit Ctrl+Alt+Delete in my brain....In other news, new cds always bring me back to life..

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Oct. 3rd, 2010 | 02:47 am

You think everything can be solved by smoking a fucking joint.

Never by holding me.
Never by making an actual connection of compassion.
It's always about just smoking a fucking joint.

Smoke your fucking brains out, apparently you dont have any left anyways.

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Oct. 3rd, 2010 | 01:36 am

Its not my fault your fucked and go crazy driving me home from work and fuckign actg so crazy and fucked that no matter what pathetic attempt you make, I'm still going to feel uncomfortiable around you.
But When it comes down it, Im just a piece a shit.

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Apr. 12th, 2010 | 11:18 pm

Today is April 12th 2010.

Ill never forget that.


Apr. 5th, 2010 | 06:56 pm

In 2009.....

[ ] stayed single
[x] got kissed
[x] kissed someone new
[x] kissed in a car
[x] kissed in the snow
[x] kissed in the rain
[ ] had my heart broken
[] broke someone else's heart
[ ] had a stalker
[x] lost a friend
[] had a good relationship with someone
[ ] came out of my closet
[] got pregnant
[ ] got married
[ ] had a divorce
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] met someone that I will never forget
[x] did something I regret
[x ] lost faith in love
[] kissed under mistletoe
[ ] got a promotion
[x] got a pay raise
[] changed jobs
[ ] lost my job
[ ] quit my job
[ ] dated a co-worker
[ ] dated my boss
[ ] dated my boss's son/daughter
[ ] got fired from my job
[ ] got straight A's
[] met a teacher who I became friends with
[] met a teacher who I really hate
[] found the subject I love
[] failed a class
[x] cut class
[x] skipped school
[] got in a fight with a classmate
[x] did something I was proud of
[] discovered a new talent
[x] proved myself an idiot
[x] embarrassed myself in front of the class
[ ] fell in love with a teacher
[x] was involved in something that I will never forget
[] painted a picture
[x] wrote a poem
[ ] ran a mile 2000 times
[x] listened to music I couldn't stand
[x] double dipped
[] skinny dipped
[x] went to a sleepover
[] went to camp
[ ] threw a surprise party
[x] laughed till I cried
[ ] laughed till I peed my pants
[x] flirted shamelessly
[ ] visited a foreign country
[ ] visited a foreign province
[x] cooked a disastrous meal
[x] lost something important to me
[x] got a gift I love
[] realized something new about myself
[x] went on a diet
[x] tried to gain weight
[x] dyed my hair
[x] came close to losing my life
[x] someone/something close to me died
[x] went to a wild party
[] drank alcohol underage
[x] got drunk
[x] read a great book
[x] saw a great movie
[x] saw a favorite band live
[x] did something that I want to tell everyone
[x] experienced something new
[x] made new friends
[] found out who my real friends are
[x] lied to my parents
[] snuck out
[] kissed in a pool
[x] kissed under the stars
[x] smoked
[x] got wasted
[x] went to a party
[x] had the time of your life
[x] danced
[x] had a crush on someone
[x] swam in a pool (beach)
[ ] made a snowman
[] went snowboarding
[ ] went sledding
[x] slept in past 2pm
[x] held someone’s hand that you care about
[x] got wasted in a public place
[ ] got wasted in Mexico
[x] told someone you like them as more than a friend
[] gone on vacation
[] gone on vacation with a friend
[] driven a car
[ ] played strip poker
[] danced in the rain
[] got in a car accident
[] saw someone get in a car accident
[] got in a fist fight
[x] laughed until you couldn't breathe
[x] missed someone
[ ] got hit by a car
[] got a new pet
[x] had an amazing year
[] enjoyed this year overall

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Feb. 11th, 2010 | 08:19 am

Hes so special. He eyes are so beautiful, I love looking at him. I love holding him and touching him. I love the way his skin feel, his whole body. Every curve memmorized, because they're so beautiful and soft and warm. When he wraps his arms around me, the butterflies in my stomach start to race. His voice makes everything better, that amazing little laugh of his..almost just a chuckle, so soft. I heard it on the phone lastnight and I melted. For the rest of my night at work, I'd hear it played back in my head and just continue to melt. I just want to hold him. No, I want to kiss him. He hates kissing me but I love his lips they're so soft and warm. His whole self is so soft and warm, its almost as if it radiates out all of the love he doesn't have for me. I sometimes feel so loved, but I have to remind myself thats not the case, and it's just I love him too much. It blinds me, I love him so much, hes so sweet and he he mkes me feel so good. He makes everything better, which im guessing is why I feel as if he does love me at times. But I push all of that out & away. This is the best thing thats ever happened to me. The most amazing man to ever walk into my life. How is it someone so amazingly wonderful and beautiful not have been taken? Why me? Why was I so special? One night together after the bar, and just like that we were together almost 24/7. Is this what he does with all of them? Or am I truly special? How would I ever know? I shouldnt think too hard into it. Valentines day in 3 days, apperntly he's never really celebrated it before. I've never had a happy Feb. 14th, so it should be a really amazing day to remember, hopfully pretty special for the both of us.

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Feb. 1st, 2010 | 09:28 pm

How long has it been since i written here? Way too long I assume. But thats how trends go. We Fade. In & out. Do you really care about livejournal? Do you really love spilling your heart out to this manfactured motherfucker? It diesnt love you, it doesnt care. SPill your guts bitch, it doesnt mean shit, you fuckign people, i fucking H-A-T-E you all. Wanna suck my dick..... You fucking better because thats all you'll fucking get from me......Sad part is it's the best dick youll ever have. You wish you could fuck me on the reguarlar. Ahahaha pathetic motherfucker. Go fuck yourself.


FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



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Sep. 17th, 2009 | 01:22 am
location: bed
mood: baked baked
music: in my head

what the fuck is wrong with my family. In other news there happens to be someone awesome in my life right now. It's good stuff. Almost everyday I see him and its lovely... but I'd never tell him just how good he really makes me feel. Something tells me I shouldnt get to involved or attached with what seems like a wonderful match.

I'm ripped.
First day off in almost two weeks tomorrow wooo!!!!

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Jul. 11th, 2009 | 10:40 am
music: KMK - Happy.

Havent used LJ in a while, so I feel like its time for an update.

I'm doing great, paying rent, not living with mommy or daddy. Doing some summer school course for two credits, so I only have one semester next year and then ILL BE DONE HIGHSCHOOL!  My work is so happy with how i handle myself there. They think I'm great with customers and doing things right and getting shit done.
I spend time with my best friend, having fun, reeking havoc, feeling great. I spend time with the most amazing and so-so-sexy man. Awesome to talk to, amazing to just chill, amazing to touch and be touched by. I love how things are going for me.

Infact, it sounds like I've gotten my shit together =)

Hahahaha, hey kate, if your reading this, A STONER IS BETTER THAN YOU.

Believe it or not.
Like it or not.
Cause its fucking true =)

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May. 27th, 2009 | 02:12 pm

alanna is sick of this siezure shit
 alanna misses her mom
alanna misses her sister
 alanna misses friends
alanna misses life
 alanna is so tired
so tired of these games
she just wants to rest